Do you know the feeling of underwater diving in the pool, when the noise seems muffled, your eyes are unfocused, a cloud of water surrounds you, your body moves in alignment with the water flow, you are controlling your body, but not in a forceful way, and you have trust in the process that at some point you will get back up on the surface. It feels like being in a peaceful, foreign world tugged in between millions of water molecules. The control is decreased, not in a disturbing way, more like sitting on your mom’s lap, pausing in complete trust, waiting for the reality to kick back in.
My brain is going through a phase of letting go, resting, and recalibrating. Even though resting is a foreign concept for me, my brain does not process the impulse from my community and general surroundings in the “typical” way. All inputs that I receive get handled on lower frequencies. The responsibility factor is on standby since I will leave this beautiful part of the earth in 28 days. My brain is disconnecting, a more translucent information processing. The space created will provide room for new connections generated between my German and American selves to create a new version of myself.
So, what should we do with this fascinating state of mind? We take in every second, feel into ourselves, allow the emotions to flow (even though I would love to control them:)), treat every moment with respect for our developmental state, and welcome the chance for new thought explosions guiding us closer to our true human capacity.
Tosca Arntz 